As you can tell from the frequency of the posts to this blog, something is going on in my life. It is sometimes hard to put into words the stress/lonliness/difficulty of the relationship that I have with God. In many ways I feel like I did back in the late 90′s. I feel like I have come to a dry time in my spiritual life. Looking back I can see the decline, but I can’t always understand and or grasp the reason for the decline.
Do I want to be closer to God? Yes. I do. Do I look for ways to make that happen? Yes. I have. I think that perhaps it is passion and fervor and a fire in the spirit that is lacking. I know of numerous spiritual exercises that will help to put me in the right frame of mind and spirit to make and encounter with God possible. However, it just doesn’t seem as if I have the energy or the desire to pursue them. Yet, there is still a since of wanting to come into God’s presence.
When I look back over the last year, I see numerous signs of God’s moving in my life and in my ministry. I am especially awed by the prayer ministry that is developing at the Virginia Avenue UMC. This is something I felt led to begin and it has taken on a life of its own. Not fueld by me, but fueld by God. I am seeing my members get enthused and want to keep the prayer groups going. I am hearing of their involvement in daily prayer and scripture reading. I am seeing the Spirit move in their lives. I guess I’m wishing and praying for that same type of movement in my own.
